pets

I can never quite reconcile myself to the concept of keeping another species, another creature, as a pet. I think of this as my dog becomes old, has laboured breathing, sleeps away the day. I keep him alive. I may decide to end his life. I am all he knows of life - me, my kids, and the abuse of my ex if a dog can somehow remember that far back. There are people who have come and gone in his life. He's travelled along with me - moved in and out of Kevin's house - been cursed and blessed with the same circumstance. He's been fourteen year of constancy - he's always lived under my roof, I've always cared for him. Fourteen years of vets and groomers and dog food and training. He used to fit in my one hand. He has no pressing reason to die just yet though he can't survive in the wild - he lives by my "grace". Is this why we own pets? Is this part of it? To play God?
I don't like it.

road worx

They're blocking traffic and making a mess. Huge machines and torn up pavement and detour signs that point a new direction every day. The Moms and Dads are getting frustrated - they want their streets back. The teenage girls are watching the construction workers. The little girls and boys sneak out to put their hands in drying cement.

blogging

Peter's return reminded me of my blogger accounts. I haven't used them for quite a while. I do some paper journalling, though not enough. I post on LJ of course - but only locked posts to friends ever since the kids' step-mother went through her weird stalking phase. She also viewed this journal but I've always kept this as a public journal. I seem to recall it had some poetry, some linking to other web sites, some reflection. I don't really understand her obsession with me, but it's hers to work through. It has little to actually do with me. She has accessed my facebook in the past as well, posing as the kids. Well, let her. She's some sort of a voyeur I suppose.
I'm tiring of facebook. It's a good way to share photos from public events, although I think I'll probably move more toward using Googles photo sharing. If I had something like Dave's photo site I'd use it - he has all the family photos online so his brother etc can access them. The kids can sign on at friends' houses and show off vacation shots, and they were able to show me Andrew and Christine's babies which was awesome. They can do that with the facebook pics as well.... it's this ongoing balance between sharing and privacy. I would be less tired of Facebook if they didn't do all their applications - it's so inefficient now.

If I am returning here I will need to put that blogthis button back on my internet.